Okay so this a blog post basically to express my own dissappointment.
I don't normally do negative posts because... well why would you want to be negative? positivity breeds motivation. At this point I think I just need to talk about the reasons I am not being very productive and in talking about it hopefully make a change.
So I went on Holiday a while back and since then my motivation for doing my project is almost none existent. I think the combination of getting back into working life and also getting into a couple of games is the cause of all this.
For a while I was playing Counter Strike: Global Offensive almost every weeknight. Then on the weekend I was spending time with my girlfriend and seeing family/friends. I got way too into this routine, more specifically I was becoming a little addicted to CS:GO. This was to the point where I would forget to have tea or do any chores around the house. So a week or two ago I realised I had to stop. Playing it wasn't even fun anymore either as I had progressed to a level where it was far too challenging for me to actually get any kills/win many games. So at this point I was just getting frustrated, except I had to play "Just one more" until eventually it was 1am and I had work in the morning.
So the other day I realised (with a little nudge from Meg) I needed to uninstall the game in an effort to hopefully start doing something productive. So I did. I uninstalled it, and this is the first week where I haven't played it at all in a long time. I have however recently bought a load of old school RTS Games (Age Of Empires II, Cossacks:Art of War, Cossacks:European Wars). When will I ever learn! So this week I have managed to play Age of Empires each night and I seem to be falling into the same trap. The only positive from this is that the panning of the camera makes me feel a little nauseous and so I can't play more than maybe 2-3 hours. Because of this panning problem I am hoping I will get bored of playing shortly and then I can concentrate on doing at least a little bit of work on my projects.
Not a technical post, more just a look inside my strange brain.
I am hoping just putting all this stuff down will help me realise how daft I am for playing games so much!
Thanks :)
I don't normally do negative posts because... well why would you want to be negative? positivity breeds motivation. At this point I think I just need to talk about the reasons I am not being very productive and in talking about it hopefully make a change.
So I went on Holiday a while back and since then my motivation for doing my project is almost none existent. I think the combination of getting back into working life and also getting into a couple of games is the cause of all this.
For a while I was playing Counter Strike: Global Offensive almost every weeknight. Then on the weekend I was spending time with my girlfriend and seeing family/friends. I got way too into this routine, more specifically I was becoming a little addicted to CS:GO. This was to the point where I would forget to have tea or do any chores around the house. So a week or two ago I realised I had to stop. Playing it wasn't even fun anymore either as I had progressed to a level where it was far too challenging for me to actually get any kills/win many games. So at this point I was just getting frustrated, except I had to play "Just one more" until eventually it was 1am and I had work in the morning.
So the other day I realised (with a little nudge from Meg) I needed to uninstall the game in an effort to hopefully start doing something productive. So I did. I uninstalled it, and this is the first week where I haven't played it at all in a long time. I have however recently bought a load of old school RTS Games (Age Of Empires II, Cossacks:Art of War, Cossacks:European Wars). When will I ever learn! So this week I have managed to play Age of Empires each night and I seem to be falling into the same trap. The only positive from this is that the panning of the camera makes me feel a little nauseous and so I can't play more than maybe 2-3 hours. Because of this panning problem I am hoping I will get bored of playing shortly and then I can concentrate on doing at least a little bit of work on my projects.
Not a technical post, more just a look inside my strange brain.
I am hoping just putting all this stuff down will help me realise how daft I am for playing games so much!
Thanks :)
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